So I feel to the depths of the knife last night and this morning. They aren't that bad looking at all. Last night I stopped myself because I knew it wasn't the way I wanted to do things. I'm trying to stop cutting not making it a habbit again. Then this morning I got another urge and fallowed that urge. Then my mom came down stairs yelling for me and I stopped. Washed up and my arm and went and talked to her.
I can't stop once I stop. I need to lose 25 pounds in a month, or maybe two months, but I need to fucking great rid of it and I don't know how. I've been trying the slim fast diet and weight watchers and as soon as I start eatting it's over. I feel like I don't have control and that I can't stop.
Look at how fat I am:
I've probably even gained a few pounds since that picture. It's fucking gross and I hate it! Anyone got an suggestions on how to get rid of all of that fat?