bloodtoburn (bloodtoburn) wrote in eyes_shut_open,

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well hello. i am new. i don't know how much action this community gets, but it sounded so lovely and perfect in the userinfo that i really wanted to join. hopefully, it is still pretty active and i have not missed the peak. ^ ^

Time started: 5:46pm

Name or Nickname you’d prefer to be called: kaitlin
Age: 16
Location: NY
Height? i don't know

Do you cut? yes
How long have you been cutting? i don't keep track really; probably over a year
Are you ashamed to be a cutter? no
What do you use to cut? knife
Have you ever done any type S.I (not just cutting) If so what? burning
Do you wish to stop? no
Who knows? 2 friends, one of which i wish did not know

Do you suffer from any ED? Specify: no
How long?
Do you wish to stop?
Can you think of the thing that triggered you to start?
Who know?

Are you an insomniac? yes
Do you have any anxieties? yes, obsessive compulsive disorder, panic disorder, agoraphobia
Any other disorders? above ^

Self diagnose yourself? i did... and then my doctor did
Are you on medication? yes (to "take the edge off"...)
Do you do any drugs or drink? kindof scared of that too... i don't really like alcohol, but i will drink. i tried weed once and wasn't really impressed. but i smoke cigarettes like there's no tomorrow, if that counts
If so:
Favourite drug? Why?
Favourite Alcoholic beverage? why?
And something you’d never touch? i don't know
Do you smoke? yes

Does time really heal all wounds? i would normally be skeptical, but i am realizing that it does help
Ever been in psych hospital? no
Have you tried to commit suicide? i want to, but haven't
Do you still have those thoughts? yes
If you could choose how you’d die what would it be from? either 1 suicide, 2 an unexpected but natural death, or 3 something really tragic, like an accident. i could go in depth, but it gets kindof weird so i'll leave it at that for now
What 3 things do you want to do before you die? 1 be in love with someone who is also in love with me, 2 be happy and satisfied, 3 i'll get back to you with three...
Do you believe in Hell? yes
Where do you think you are going? i think heaven
Would you say your life tends to get better or worse or does it just stays the same? it varies... i guess with the medicine things are getting consistently "better", but i am not really satisfied still... there are ups and downs

Last beverage drank: pepsi
Last food consumed: french fries
Last time showered: this morning
Last thing you said?: i don't remember
Last CD played: joy division
What song comes closest to how you feel about your life right now? um... violent femmes "kiss off"? maybe... + more

How is your relationship with your parents? fine
Does it bother you if you are physically touched in any way (e.g hugged)? i don't think so
What is under your bed right now? boxes of garbage, thinks i can't let myself throw away
What brings you to this site? looked good ^ ^
What are you wearing? pajamas
Where is the computer you are accessing this site from? my room
Favourite color? black or grey

Tell me anything about your self? i don't know what else to say.. for now

looking forward to talking to you guys.
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